25 January, 2011

few friends are just more than friends

NOTE: As the title goes, this is a request please do not turn down my words by simple misinterpretation. Kindly read this post with an open mind. Without bothering to bring the gender issue for it is a post to deal with a little extra care and handled with grace!

Past few weeks I have this very strange feeling so thought to share it with you all. I have been noticing some really major changes in the prospective of things. This is a thing which I though knew it, I have never tried expressing it ever to anyone and as the matter of fact is even I was in a way ignored by my own views deliberately.

Okay the thing is that, I want right words to express...
Though, any language of the world in not that rich to have a word to express which I really want to. Yeah this info is true to the best of my knowledge.

The quote is;
We are not Just friends or confirmed great friends BUT...

This is so much applicable to any gender or opposite sex people. Well I know this is getting so confusing yet I will try to give few examples to explain and express the best.

Example one:
I have my school friends. And indeed plenty are on the list and more to be added. Most of them are from my own class so definitely we know each other quite well. Yet there are many who were in the school, know me as an acquaintance and hence titled as friends. Nothing wrong in this I guess!

My issue here is...these days I find the word ‘friend’ so small yet so common that I’m not able to express my extra special feeling to that someone special.

I mean though all are my friends but there are just very few who are truly my closest buddy and are more than just friends.
My school friends particularly the group of girls “Mg’s” are the perfect example to give and say...that they are my friends, may be the best friends and yet my buddies but addressing them saying that they are my friends...is not fair or just too less to express.

As, I know they are definitely more than friends for the bond we share and have been sharing, yet after all this I don’t know how to title them. They are not just friends but those are like my own sisters though I know we don’t share any blood lines yet they are just very close to my heart. So it is complex but so beautiful. It's cuddlier, it's more endearing.

Say its like, few relationships have no name yet people claim to be forever friends! Indeed what an irony!!

It’s like, I know those few are my friends (could be a girl or a boy) and we share a closest bond yet I know that there is only a word called as ‘friend’ that would be used to describe them, no matter how special they are to me and I’m for them.

...I want a new word to define
my warmth my affection   my care
concern for my special bonds..!
And this particularly is actually bothering me.
I want to a new word to define my warmth, my affection, my care for them.

Often we tend to address such people like, well-wisher, buddy, supporter, fan, admirer, mate and pal as an extension of being friend or being just more than a friend.

I thought, ‘soul-mate’ was the closest best word, I could use but perhaps not everyone with accept the word precisely and willingly.
I think, ‘buddy’ was another closest word and best to use it in a friendly term and perhaps everyone will appreciate it yet not fulfilling, I guess!

Indeed, not all relationships have names!
Or I’m just too lazy to define them those are ‘soul-bonds’. I share this with my best of few friends who are girls and yet few are boys. (So GENDER is not an issue here...kindly keep this in mind while going through the post.)

The thing or the feeling is when you come across such person, irrespective to the gender; you just know the spark is there. You just know he/she understands you the best way. And perhaps you know you are not judged on words or not read as a pretention. The whole vibe and aura is so beautiful when the two of you come across, share a word and instantly open your world of thought without any hesitation.

Come ‘on they cannot be just friends we know this clearly for we are so sure sharing a huge strong bond. The bond could be created long back ago and with age got matured so we respect that attachment. Or the bond could be created newly where heavenly stars instantly play its magic and you feel so connected either meeting after many years or meeting recently.

Example two:
Perhaps, I know all my blogger friends are my friends and we definitely share some common ground of creativity and thoughts. But there are few just very few and special one, not just friends, or buddies but we share a bond. I feel like a family with them. Really...no matter how virtual world could be, I could not resist this genuine connection!

~ And again when I go back to my school mates and college mates, I cannot refuse to accept a certain inclination for certain few people. Some of those have come up with a long race distinct the distance and time and stood by me in all thick and thin of different phase of my life.

~ Yet there are also few who moved on in their life in a flow and latter when they stood at the heap on the top alone found me creating a rapport like never before. The feeling is like we never left each other ever and started along just when we got in touch.

~ Perhaps, it is also possible that such people are the one with whom you might not have shared many experience, might not have been in touch, might not have shared a word for a long time but definitely when got connected; nothing could defy the mutual fondness shared.

And those people are one who will never complain why we never spook, why we could not make it in past, why there is a why in our life, cause’ this is how we build our strong bond and this is how we will cherish it in the long run. And perhaps we are so glad that we have a fact ‘how’ we are still so related in the goodness!

Possibly with my all those so called friends but more than friends, I enjoy this feeling in thyself  “there is something that have kept us together intact in a sacred pose no matter how many conflicting issues arrived.

Actually at this juncture of life,
I got plenty of people who are my friends. Yet today, I want friends only who understands me the best without me giving every explanation about what I actually mean. I want an easy-going conversation. Where I’m not picked for my words but comprehend for my emotions. I do not want to have a college kind of casual chat where I’m constantly misinterpreted first and then latter clarifying all correctly missing the core.
  • I want my special one on my side where confidently I can say ‘you belong with me’!
  • I want to be free of adjectives while I’m explicitly expressing my likes and dislikes list.
  • And I want to be where I’m just pulling their legs on different levels of dialogues.
  • And them still getting my witty humour just right...
  • It is where not all friends do, but there are just few more than friends acting just so complementary and complimentary.

And here I’m in a position where we might not be agreeing on everything and every time but the respect for the emotions, freedom of thoughts and sharing the same without holding back is being appreciated in every long or small conversation made.

Everybody had a theory, a personal way of being and expressing to calculate the life mysteries. I believe, I got mine so here I’m sharing above my quote of life that I’m following these days to simplify the complexity of relationships and recreating a simple formula by accepting and being aware of the highly intensify attraction of bonds brought together.

I still need to figure out more. But I’m just too happy to see that I have created my own list of those special ones and treating them well as they deserve it.

Okay, the bottom line is I’m still in a quest of that correct word to define that special bond which is more than a friend.

Yet I know, the verbatim line is actually, 'Rose is a rose is a rose is a rose'! That is in similar vein to Shakespeare's 'a rose by any other name would smell as sweet'.
That's like an interpretation given by me that though I’m searching the word to address that special bond yet I know they are still my friends and special one too.

And perhaps, I should not stop by calculating life mysteries as the mystery is so beautiful when unsolved.
So I’m enjoying the telepathy we are sharing, the dreams we are exchanging and the hiccups while remembering.

Finally, I feel so good and focused that as far as possible I’m able to come up with something very complex...yet I got so clueless to define...but I'm enjoying this mix feeling which is truly resulting into a conclusion I guess!!

And clueless venture where I’m busy in acknowledging the deep dynamics of relationships which is changing, my obsession and attachments with those few special one mounting. I’m admitting the same to them these days and with a hope that they will understand my innocent intention of evolving and gratifying to our friendship and bond nourished.

Indeed, the essence is so pure to create and care the new chum!

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22 January, 2011

Mystery of Love

Indeed, sometimes picture speaks more than any words or crisp statements could express.
This adorable expressive picture below is taken by my very sweet friend, Aishwarya!!
So proud of you gurl! And thanks so much for letting me use this picture :)

Even if we knew it all
There would still be a little mystery evolved,
Even if all our tales would have been told in words
There still is a chance to talk even more in codes!

And there if we ask a question
Sure it means we knew the reply that is coming by,
And it’s then, when I try to stare in your bright eyes
I never get through clear, me being moderately shy!

And yet when I blink my eye immediately after,
I see your glimpse in every flash and flare,
And this is when I love the sentiment to share,
And tend to hate same time the feeling that
You are not here!

But as it is said
In thoughts, in walks, in every motion, in gesture tried
In words, files, in coffee breaks and long-ride,
I know, you envision me
Through every moment subsist and dream surge survives!

And yet when one is far behind;
Walking alone...
But with the sailing memories storm,
Still walking and waking nights
For you regretting no instance ever!

Nothing yet a lot has been changed
Except for the feel of that old flame
We have tried to move on
but this feeling’s are just too strong!

Something simultaneously provokes and prevent,
I know occasionally you hung up when you dial
Or sometimes dialled and not held emotions mild
Hence, I will never let you be alone even for a while..
Will make you always smile even from a mile,
I’ll get in your rhyme tic heartbeats wave
And soon you’re heading into my soul’s way!

So until I find you on my side
I fear nothing but sudden lost sign
Cause’ I still adore you like I did before,
For your presence constantly keeps me under control
And here I share secrete powers to smile more
Further I see myself really grow like never before!

Then seek out not scared, my dear sweets!
Smile, share peaks and speak sweet
Fling out your fears...
Let any questions like ‘why’ or ‘If’ never enters!

By far, we will care the bond
Nourish, flourish in the core
Cause' YOUR big heart and kindness...
will find its way to ME...!
Ending a mystery of sacred history!
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17 January, 2011

Distance and Destiny by choice

A miles difference
On your side
Me on mine
Minutes I count
I see the sunshine
Brightening my day
I think you see a moon
Same time on your way!

Thinking about you feels so right
I don’t mind if this keeps me awake all night,
I wish this all made sense,
I wish just that you understand!

Filling my evenings
Agony is out of our control
Feeling my heart
Things next slowly crawl

Hope brings edge
Heartbeat aches
Many more tears
Tearing me apart
As you sadly blink,
My spirits almost sink
Memories bound to pound
One of the rare kind sounds
Pleasure and pain countdown recount!

I have known you for years
This brings big smile here
Shaft of light instantly I feel
Every thought is so deep and real!

Ages been
When we shared a word
As you did precisely,
I fluttered and shared my world!

We talked, we walked
Lanes of memories and time zones
And as we fought in dismay
Yet strengthening our bond
And no matter how best I try
I cannot stop my emotions flow as I write
Still creating and rebuilding our strong tie
Sweet thoughts and affection all it binds and reminds!

Determination was always high,
Now I recall..
We never gave up or said goodbye..!
You have been always on my mind
Supportive, caring and healing divine
With every single soft breath I take,
I feel your presence and fleeting time
It’s there just so steady flawlessly,
A sacred blessed feeling...
I don’t know just how to define..!

Every tiny life path brick fits and phase lands
A new shade of painting story here it begins
Larger than destination,
Longer than bounded time
It's by hope and dreams refine!

I know no element or compelling force
That separate chords or breaks the codes..
Together happiness and warmth of our voice,
Glad! Life solved puzzles by choice!

Little mystery still evolves..
Humble fondness grows
Instantly connected
Always so close
Makes us reach
Unique unknown touch soul in each instinct
I believe, friendly spark in us is destined!
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13 January, 2011

missing facet of hidden

The stunning picture below is take by my very dear friend 'Parker'
Thanks so much buddy!!! Hope u like this picture and mystery attached!

In the crowd
In the lanes
Of memories
And people insane
Run as I would
Just if I could
Till I’m left

Only to be
A face unknown
Unnoticed clone
When no one sees
Secretly I wish
That one
And only the one
In the twilight
Truly secretly notice
Actually see
Claim on me

Missing facet
Of Hidden
But in a small thought
Of the one
Reaches me
Takes me
Into me
Define and
My matter
My mind

The heights
And extreme
Up and underneath
Refusing to reveal
Turning divine
To define
The search
A company
To share all
Under the sky
With stars

Invisible yet
An experience
Virtual yet a
Brush of realism
Envelop emotions
Concealed views
Shield soul
Sheltering corners
Stolen moments
Love locked
No one will ever know
Now I will bear all
For the chance certain
But a step never through
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10 January, 2011

I tried - Sweet Love

There are so many things often I ignore to say..
Sometimes I forget,
Yet sometimes I just easily shy away,
But I heartily wish and hope to tell you someday..
That I get speechless every time,
When I actually try to say!
Yet I can only pose the best way I could
Opening wide warm arms, pouting a bit, blink in twilight..
Steering a flying kiss
Like a sweet mere butterfly...
In a certain belief you will catch..
And YOU will be pleased..
To see that I at least tried!
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05 January, 2011

Sand Fantasy

Below is the inspiring picture of my very sweet friend -'Prerna'.
And this prose is dedicating to wish her great ever smiling charming life!

~ Sand fantasy ~

A careless slightest breeze,
Passing through her dark locks,
Touching peach cheek,
Leaving them forever blushing!

While the mild wind settles,
Wild goes the aqua sea,
Ripples of hope repeats,
Replenish ecstasy sealed!

Breeze turns into a blow,
Taller the waves,
Deepen the love shores,
Higher the vow goes!

Crystal indigo water in the crest,
Allied to the aqua water in the trough,
Currents continue connection,
Recollecting sand shimmer and moments!

Supple delicate dreams,
Wondering walk beside the blue deep,
Tides flowing to smoothing the fantasy trail,
Carving footsteps through the future trace!

And here goes a curve,
Creating a fine-grained dream castle,
And a compassion in sand,
In the embedded heart arc, she created!

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03 January, 2011

Going into Greater mind

Note: 55 Fictions is precise form of micro-fiction that refers to the works of fiction limited to a maximum of fifty-five words. Hope you like it ! And Happy New Year,2011. friends!!
  • The picture below is taken by dear friend of mine and very talented person Sagar Heerani! I'm sure you will be able to see more of beautiful captured moments by Sagar in the coming posts. Welcome our new photographer, Sagar Heerani with his distinct vision! Keep the spark ALive..dude :)

55fiction - Going into Greater mind

He fitfully looks around feeling edgy!

‘What are the intentions?’ he repeats countless.
‘Respect the request and decode the current challenge in verve!’ Mind complies.

Parched wits yet an illuminating soul!

‘Dozen of ideas to a sole little inspiration stimulates...’

..Elucidates a struggling writer.. 

and a passionate creator...finally reads  ‘flash’  going into greater mind!

Vision (c) Sagar Heerani
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